Whoa! YOU GUYS…How has it been this long since I gave you an update?! ARE YOU READY?!?! LET’S GO!!!
Well, the fact of the matter is that this summer was a roller coaster, so let me just compose myself and break it all down for you.
First, the biggest hit this summer was my lovely, magical, extra special grandpa left us here on earth. This sweet man went to be with the Lord on July 6th. Grief is a funny thing and it really can be a catalyst for so many wonderful things in life. More on that later when I can really put into words what happened to me. It was a surreal experience but let me just tell you, friends. I have peace.
A month prior to that, approximately the end of May, my daughter experienced her first ever death with her great-grandmother passing from YEARS long of illness. While it was expected, death for a twelve year old can still be very painful. It was painful but luckily, she is also a Jesus girl and when we approached it from a biblical approach and the comfort we have in what God says about death, I believe she has mastered that hump.
Second, my mom gave us a HUGE scare the middle of June with nearly losing her life to the symptoms of A-fib and Congestive Heart Failure that was mis-diagnosed and untreated. This was a scary time because, we all remember in 2015, I lost my father to a severe heart attack. Truth be told, A-fib, heart disease and basically, all thing related to the heart run in my family. For me, personally, I had to work hand in hand with my mom, the doctors and the hospital to put everything in order. While there were moments of clarity and hope that this bus with my mom that we were riding, could get turned around, we are actually still trying to get a plan under control. While it is a very controlled environment, there are still updates to be had.
Third, I gained all my weight back and then some. There was pain seething from my fingertips as I just became super real and raw in that moment. I don’t handle grief, stress, and the fork to my mouth very well. I haven’t been in the gym in months and while I have small bouts of guilt, I know that I have so many other things I need to work out within me that honestly, the gym is not my priority right now.
Fourth, my friend and I rekindled a broken friendship. THIS, this was huge. Without giving too many personal details for the sake of keeping the integrity intact, it was beautiful when we both came to the table (phone) with all of our insecurities, thoughts and feels about miscommunications and worked through all the shit to know that we still love each other so much and we are soul sisters who just need to communicate better to help each other.
Fifth, I almost quit my job. But, then they wouldn’t let me. Instead, my current employer gave me a rad opportunity to open a branch where I am from and while that is being worked out and we find brick and mortar, I am working from home. HOW COOL IS THAT? Also, HOW FORTUNATE AM I? Trust me, there is not a day that goes by that I don’t thank the good good Father above for allowing me to have such wonderful people in my life to get me where I am and going!
Finally, my marriage has suffered the most. For most of you, you know that I work full-time, I have a very active daughter, and my husband works and goes to school full-time. This is a lot and I can assure you, without airing all the dirty laundry that a lot of unwanted stress has crept in. We are still finding our way and we are still here but the most important thing is that we have really put God the center in our marriage and have committed to each other to work through the mud through all of this. And, for those of you who are married, you know that marriage is hard work and it is not for the faint of heart. But also, we really have taken time to find good influences for us to lean on for growth opportunities, like Rachel and Dave Hollis. For those of you who may be unfamiliar with who they are, she wrote the book “Girl, Wash Your Face”. They also have joined ventures and they are doing some marriage work that truly speaks to Andrew and I’s souls. So, yay for that.
For real, finally….I changed my Instagram title. I changed it because this blog will be getting a face lift too, if I decide to keep it and what I will do with it. My Instagram handle is now: more.kal …. The reason for the change is that beyond what this blog was (working. Lifting. Mom’ing) and what my Instagram has shown, there is more to me. Life happens with me outside of those three categories. This blog and my platform is a way for me to be raw and candid about all things in my life so that you can learn and grow with me as we navigate this thing called life, together. There is something so much more appealing and human about the Instagram’s I follow when that person is just themselves with natural human things, thoughts and feelings happening to me. When I can shout through me screen “yes, girl that is so me!” It gives me hope that I am not alone. And dear, dear friends, you are NOT alone. THAT is what more means to me is living in all facets of your life to be more and do more!
I’m going to leave you with this:
here is SO MUCH more I want to say on each of these things but it will come to me. It is ironically beautiful that when I have writers block, I just have to give some space to the space I am interacting in, let some life happen, tune into it and BAM! Content and things that matter for you lovelies to read. I am not here to make any money, really, I am here to vent and love on those who maybe are getting helped by just hearing my ramblings and knowing that there is a person who gets them. If that is you, and only you, I hear you and I love you.
My dear friends, you are so loved. Even in the midst of your chaos.
until next time.